Da Secret

Changed blog addy. =)

No longer an intern

Today's my last day of work.

YAY!

However, because the poor me hasn't found a job yet, i begged my supervisor to let me stay on until i find a permanent job. The pay is PEANUTS, and i really mean P-E-A-N-U-T-S!

Tell you and you'll cringe at the pay.

So it's back to work again tomorrow. Driving me crazy...

Picking Up

So glad that i managed to solve a small part of my project problem yesterday. Satisfaction!


While reading through other people's blogs, many things run through my mind. Yet, queer, when i open and create a blog post, i'm stuck with a writer's block. Maybe it's my age that's been catching up with me.


On my off days, i either stay at home and bum or i go out and window-shop in town. While window-shopping these days, i feel so out of place. Something that i never felt until recently. Shopping, window or not, has been my second nature.


And recently it's been hitting me really bad - the feeling that i'm already coming XX(age), and at this age i've not yet established a stable career and i'm still living from paycheck to paycheck. Oh, and that's my attachment paycheck that i'm talking about.


It's a useless feeling that i can only blame myself for. My result of my lack of determination and laziness is showing, and it's hitting me real bad.


I didn't do that well in PSLE, so i was forced to go to the Normal Academic stream - 6 more points and i'd be able to go to Express! I went to TP after O' Levels because i couldn't get into the course i wanted in NYP, then dropped out at the end of the 2nd year. I worked for a full year, then decided to go back to studying. I enrolled in NYP, but the course wasn't what i quite expected it to be. I failed 2 modules in the 2nd year and i had to retain a semester. So here i am now, 3 days away from my last day of attachment.


It's been a longgg journey for me, but it moulded me into who i am today. I'm still quite the procrastinator i was before, leaving things to do until the last minute. But i've learnt some lessons that some people in life have never gone through. Imagine people despising you because of your age and your qualifications. That sucked big time.


But it's about standing tall and strong, and not falling when people smirk at you or mock you behind your back. It's my achievement to be able to pick myself up and not let myself fall further behind. And nothing that anybody can do or say is gonna change that.

Soon-To-Be Jobless In The City

Emirates is hiring this weekend too.. Mich, makes you gian right? =) The advert is on the last page of today's The Straits Times classifieds.


Anyway, it's been a really hectic few days for me. So much information to process sometimes, and you don't really know how to go about doing which one first.


What the heck am i talking? Hmm.


Met Mich for 2 days straight... Monday was a little catch-up session between us, and i really enjoy talking to her. Sometimes it's so hard to find someone whom you can blurt out your heart to and to have that person telling you their honest opinions. There are really too many superficial people these days, and Mich is definitely not one of them.


We met up yesterday because my colleague's dad passed away, so we met up to go to the wake. With so many people passing on recently, it saddens me alot and makes me treasure the people i have around me more.


Oh well, it was quite a coincidence that at the wake, i met my colleague's sister's friend too. She was one of the girls whom i met at an interview last month, and she's due to start training today, so i'm so glad for her!


But not so glad for myself... I just found out yesterday that the school will only release my results in the 3rd week of September. Which is a load of crap because i don't see why i have to wait when our attachment results are immediate, and my final year project was over 3 months ago. Total waste of our time, because i'm stuck between my future employer wanting to hire me asap, and my stupid transcripts. I know they have processes to follow, but i really don't see a point in making the graduates wait! If i don't get it soon, i think my job is gonna go to someone else... *CRY*


It's only 4 more days until my last day of work. Half happy, half sad. I'm so glad to leave, because this is the kind of work that will drive me really crazy if i stay any longer. I'm sad because i still have not got a confirmed job yet, and my future is quite uncertain.


Anyone wants to offer me a 1 month temp job, while i go in search of a more suitable perm job?


Alright, before i can even dream about any job, i have to get past this stage first... I've got a presentation to my supervisor and my boss this Friday! It's on this e-commerce project that we've been working on for the past 8 weeks or so.


It's really sub-standard work, and i've got a feeling my boss will vomit blood on the spot when he takes a look at this. Hah! In fact, i'm still stuck with two of the functions that i don't know what to do next. Been staring at the same problem for the past week and it's still like this.


So hard to be a worker!


But hey, if i don't wake up and smell the roses, it's not gonna help my future in any way. I'm gonna get back to solving the problem in the meantime...


Oh yeah, and i dyed my hair black yesterday. It said Dark Brown on the box, but it looks black to me. Jolin has black dark brown hair too. Love the new look!

Hey You, Beautiful!

For the benefit of all you beautiful people out there, here it is...

Local Flight Stewardess/ Steward

We will be conducting a recruitment exercise for Flight Stewardess/ Steward in Singapore. If you meet the following standards, we will be pleased to meet you at our walk-in interview.

Requirements

• Singapore or Malaysian citizenship
  
• Females who are at least 1.58m; males who are at least 1.65m in height
  
• At least 2 GCE ‘A’-level credits and 2 ‘O’-level credits including General Paper in the GCE ‘A’-level examination; or a Diploma from a local Polytechnic.
  (Those with at least 5 GCE ‘O’-level credits, including English, and relevant working experience may also apply).
  
• Completed, are exempted from, or are not liable for National Service. Those in the process of completing NS may also apply.

Preference will be given to candidates who are able to speak foreign languages or are experienced in customer service.

Training

If you make it through our rigorous selection process, you will undergo about 4 months’ training. On successful completion of training you will commence flying duties.

Remuneration & Service Benefits

Apart from the opportunity to experience various cultures and meet new people from around the world, you can look forward to a total income of about S$3,500 a month, including fixed salary and variable incentive allowances. Plus an annual wage supplement of one month’s basic salary and profit-sharing bonus. You will also be entitled to free travel to any SIA destination once a year and enjoy discounted travel at other times.

Application Details

If you measure up to our requirements and are interested to apply, please download and complete this application form.
Please bring the completed application form, your original birth and educational certificates, identity card, and a passport-sized photograph along for registration between 9am and 12noon.

Interviews will be conducted on 26 and 27 August 2006 at:

Raffles City Convention Centre
Swissotel The Stamford
4th Level – Atrium Ballroom
No. 2 Stamford Road
Singapore 178882

Adapted from http://www.singaporeair.com/saa/en_UK/content
/company_info/careers/cabincrew_details.jsp on 20th August 2006.

Da Boss

While waiting for my Tiramisu to chill in the fridge, i thought maybe i should blog.


So many things to say, but i don't know where to start. Hmm...


I received a call at about 9am from my supervisor. I opened my sleepy eyes and took at look, then plonked myself back into bed. He calls and calls.


Finally i wake myself, but i decide that i shouldn't even pick the phone up since it is afterall my off day. He then sends an SMS asking me to call him ASAP.


I cringe.


After painting a hand of french manicure, i decide that i should just call him back to see what he wants. I had a funny feeling that he wanted me to go back to work, since my partner was on MC today.


I hate shift work.


Anyway.


So i decided, if he was to tell me that, i would tell him that i was unable to go work. I called him back and he told me the very thing that i hated to hear - to replace my partner for today.


Okay, i knew for a fact that my partner was going to be on MC today since he told me yesterday that he wasn't feeling too well already. However, days ago he asked if i could change shift with him today.


Well it's not that i am cruel - i would change if i could, but i was to go to my cousin's birthday in the evening. So how to change, right? He told me he had his grandmother's birthday to attend. Equally as important is my cousin's birthday, so i declined.


Anyway, it is such a coincidence that he was to go on MC today. We all wonder.


Coming back to my main point, the conversation between my supervisor and myself. I ended up huffing and puffing over the phone because i was trying to get my point across to him that i could not go to work today, by hook or by crook. It is afterall my off day, you know.


He then threatened to tell my Liason Officer that i am not fulfilling my duties as an intern. So in a fit of anger, i told him "OK GO DO JUST THAT, because i did not sign any agreement to begin with."


Baby called me after that and reprimanded me for being so rude to my supervisor, since afterall he was the one who would tell my Liason Officer whether i was to pass or fail my internship.


Ok, not worth being rude. My fault.


So i called my supervisor and apologised, saying that i could cover the shift from then (which was about 12.30pm) until 4pm. He then told me "like that you might as well not come". Well, i thought it'd be better than not being there at all what, since i was 'obligated' to replace my partner.


To tell you all the truth, i had already called the other 2 colleagues of mine prior to talking to Baby. One of them, as usual, does not pick up his phone and does not change shift with other people and always has something on every freakin' day. I think he is plain selfish, but well people have their own rights. So yes, i shall not speak further.


Going on to my other colleague, i called him and explained what happened, and he told me that he had already agreed to take over my partner's shift (and that was in the morning before i called my boss back).


Now it seriously makes my boss look hypocritical because it is not the first time that this has happened. I mean, does it look like we don't even talk in the workplace?


But never mind that, since it has all been settled. I am still a little angry because i hate being disturbed on my rest day, and the customers whom i come into contact with are always annoying me.


Yep, just me venting my frustrations. PMS!

Great-GrandMa

I blogged yesterday morning with reference to a friend of mine, without first looking at her blog. This morning, i saw the tag post and i checked her blog. From there, i could see that she is quite troubled over some issues.


Funny how it was meant to work this way. The timing is so coincidental. She usually blogs of happiness and how she spends her lovely weekends. This time it was different, she blogged of sadness and confusement. She was down and lost.


God works like this, you see.


He wants you to see that you have gone away from Him too long. He comes in at that moment to tell you that He's still around, and that He is there by your side in times like this.


My great grandmother passed away a few weeks back. I only saw her once a year during CNY, although i used to see her quite often during my growing-up years. 2 months ago, she was warded into hospital because she had a stroke. She couldn't even talk, but she could hear us.


I regret not being able to speak Cantonese well, although i do know the minimal basics. I can understand Cantonese though, but what was the point in understanding when my great grandmother couldn't even speak?!


I cried then, knowing that i was unable to help ease her pain and give more consoling words. God took her back a few weeks ago, and we know she's happier there. If your loved one is sick, please give him all the love that you can give. Because you'll never know when God will take him back, and by then, it'll be too late for regrets.

That FF Dress

It's on SALE!





I hate it when things go on SALE!, and i don't have the money to buy it.


Okay, maybe this one's too expensive.. But it's U.P. US$1720 NOW US$859!!!


I liked the other dress from the same collection, but well, that's not on SALE!. Then again, even if it were on SALE!, i'd still not be able to afford it.





Okay, quite a pointless post. Ignore me...

Without Him

I was in church yesterday for the feast of the Assumption of Mary. A day of obligation in the liturgical calendar for us, Catholics.


I went alone.


Hardly surprising, really. Ever since i broke away from choir in 2002 or so, i've always been going to church alone.


I go through various phases of my church-going life, and it's sad how friends just come and go. (And i'm talking about the people who go with me to church.) Of course, from the time i was an infant until i was primary 4, i went to church with my dear old family. Then in primary 5, i decided to join the sunset mass choir because i loved singing (although i did think it was a good way of making more friends too, but that is not the main point).


The reason why i broke away in 2002, was because i thought i had better things to do -- like to hang out with my then-boyfriend on Saturday nights. In fact, things got really bad then because i used to stay over at his house every bloody weekend. Sleeping really late on Saturdays, and hardly ever could have gotten up on Sunday mornings. Sunday sunset masses were absolutely boring to the big B, so i skipped them too.


In fact, i skipped away from the Lord ever since i had that very boyfriend in 2000. Stupid huh?


Well, you haven't heard the worst. I dropped out of TP then, and found a temp 3 month job in Starhub. Then around the date when my contract was about to end, his mum asked me to work for her at her small neighbourhood spa, and i agreed. Just as i told my supervisor, days later, he dumped me in 2002.


I almost wanted to end my life. I was crying days and nights, until my eyes were swollen every single day. It was like..The End of the World!


Guess who i turned to, in the end?


My Saviour, God.


It's amazing how God works in so many different ways to show us that he truly cares for us, and wants us to grow closer to him. I turned to God every single day. I went to the Novena to pray on my days off and sometimes before and after work. Initially i thought that praying for God to let things be okay with my ex would be the way to go. It didn't work.


Well, OBVIOUSLY IT DIDN'T WORK!


Because i was praying for the wrong stuff. Hah! I then prayed for God to give me the strength to overcome whatever obstacles that came my way. Ahh..Then it worked. =)


I then learnt that it's not what comes your way that mattered, but it's how you have the strength to overcome all bad things. God was my support pillar. When i was down, he got me to stand up with my head high and move on. Something that i admit that i would truly not be able to do alone.


Without religion and God, i am nothing.


So don't throw God in the corner, look to him for he brings unconditional love, peace and support. It won't hurt to take an hour off the 168 hours we live by each week, to go church.


God will be waiting for you.

090806 - National Day Picnic

We couldn't get tickets, so this is what bored people do on National Day...

Baby threw the egg into the pot and it broke. This is what it looks like, after peeling off the shell

I do a cross-section of it to explain why we should never throw or drop eggs into the pot. Do it SLOWLY and GENTLY. The egg looks seriously deformed

I made steak sandwiches for us to bring go to...

We are reaching already!

REACHED! And (the tent is not ours, by the way) we laid our beach towel on the grass to sit

All decked in National colours, these people look seriously starved! And yes, that's the indoor stadium you see in the background. We were at Tanjong Rhu!

I cooked one =)

The first fly-past! SO EXCITING!

It flies over the National Stadium where the rest of the 55000 people are...

Jets!

The split so beautifully and oh-so-coordinated!

Andy enjoys my Potato & Egg Salad.. Hehe. I make one too =)

Baby loves Crisps

The Potato Salad monster is eating it all away!

Our field pack, complete with portable TV to catch the broadcast! HAHAHA

And the fireworks start...

Eh, how come... What the... WHY GOT THESE PEOPLE SUDDENLY APPEAR IN FRONT OF US?!?

Leave you all to enjoy the fireworks...

Baby tries to adjust the TV to get the best reception

We weren't the only ones there... (Which was why there was a long jam and a road block and no parking... ARGH...)

Happy People!

080806 - O Bar & Mee Sua

Us @ O Bar

My glitter-ed nails holding some promo cider they had. It's actually Vodka Ribena if you ask me.

The Birthday Boy, Felix

Cute coffee beans floating on the innocent-looking drink

Hey, there's 4! Maybe not so innocent now...

Baby morphs the straws into chopsticks and attempts to grab the beans out

Andy says Baby's lousy, and proceeds to demonstrate

Baby's turn to demonstrate how the drink is to be drank - you gargle it in your mouth first

Use a lighter, to light a fire in your mouth, while someone else tries to light his cigarette from your flaming mouth

Not too complicated, so the Bday Boy tries...

And Baby tries to get his ciggy lit (I DO NOT CONDONE SMOKING, just in case you all wanted to know!)

We try to light the glass instead

While on fire, the Bday Boy does it again

What's a birthday without MORE drinks? =)

His friend buys him 7 different shots of i-don't-know-what (i was too busy trying to take photos so i didn't ask) and 2 waterfalls

He acts drunk to shun the drinks

Worse, he spits the drink out into the tissue.. CAUGHT ON CAMERA!

And yah, my supper, Taiwan Mee Sua from You Fu (a.k.a. You Tiao Da Wang)!