i'll look to like, if looking liking move; but no more deep will I endart mine eye; than your consent gives strength to make it fly

i'm devestated. [ok maybe not that severe.] this is what i hate about love, or liking anyone for that matter. is it that i always look in the wrong direction? or perhaps, i've got a character trait that nobody likes?

why do i even allow myself to like someone when i'm really loving the freedom that i get now? i'm doing myself no justice. argh. anyway, balderdashing aside, i think i've fallen for someone. not gonna mention names here cos i'm scared he gets wind of it! woot. dangerous eh.

anyway this guy, let's just call him abracadebra. :) he's nice. oh darn i can't write too much or else i'm really giving away clues! ok so yeah, let's just leave it at "he's nice" alrite?

what made me a lil sad was that i found out he has been chasing this girl for 1½ years. the girl's older than him by 3 years. and let's just call her vivian. this vivian girl - damn stupid. doesn't she see a good guy when she meets one?! i mean, she is like those kind of "ai mai" type. abracadebra showed me the sms she sent. it read "let's try out the relationship for 1 month. if we can last that long, then good. if not, then maybe we're not meant to be together." like DUH.

ah. i'm late for church. ok will blog later. rally's not on today. sian. but gonna meet my girlfriends for dinner nonetheless. glad to have girlfriends like them to hear my woes. :) love you guys! *muacksss*