how now brown cow?

commitment-phobia. i don't wanna break mr abracadebra's heart, but i'm really scared of commiting to a relationship so fast. it's only been a month, and i've been enjoying myself so much that i don't wanna be attached anymore.

i enjoy the attention that i get. i'm happy that for once, i can tell people that i'm single, and ready for any blind dates you offer me! but, that's all gonna change when we talk about going into a relationship, isn't it?

his friends have been assuming that we're together, and he doesn't bother to deny it. he hasn't totally shrugged off the vivian girl, and she's yet again scaring people with suicides now. in fact, he just told me that he told his colleagues that "he's seeing someone else right now." DUH.

so what DOES it mean? whatever that means, i'm not getting committed. no way. at least not so soon. sharks. now i'll have to find a gentler way of telling that to him. geez.

DETOUR:
while i was checking up on phobias, make a guess - what is paraskavedekatriaphobia? NEVER THOUGHT SUCH A WORD EXISTED! check this website out.