just a lil bit confused

mixed emotions. to opt out or opt in? that is the question.

out - insecurity issues. be it him feeling that way because i don't assure him enough, or me afraid that he cannot provide me with a roof to live under in time to come.

in - i still love him.

which weighs more? i'm still figuring that out. but in the meantime, i'll keep my eyes open. i love my social circle now. it's getting wider. maybe if i take a break from the relationship, i can think it over more throughly huh? i'll take a step as it goes from now. who knows what's in store for me tomorrow?