ambivalence.

boy meets girl.
girl falls in love with boy.
boy and girl go together.
out of the blue, boy backs out.
girl realises that boy is ambivalent.
boy doesn't realise it himself.
girl is sad.
boy is ambivalent.
girl is disappointed.
boy is still ambivalent.
girl gives up.
boy is glad.

girl becomes ambivalent because of it.
now girl meets another boy.
boy falls in love with girl.
girl likes boy.
boy starts to get possessive even though they're not together.
girl backs off.
boy doesn't realise it's becoming a repulsion.
girl gets very ambivalent.
boy still thinks that there's hope.
girl cringes further away.
boy continues to try to control her.
girl realises that she's ambivalent.

she is now gonna seek help.
maybe the boy should seek help too.
while shopping yesterday, she saw this book.


The Commitment Cure

"the commitment cure - what to do when you fall for an ambivalent man".
it's $28.
expensive.
she's gonna go all around singapore to find that book from a second hand bookstore.
the search begins now.