baby, i'm sorry.

hmm. my blog isn't being updated despite me updating it a few days back. (and the fucking bitch still hasn't done anything about the clothes that were thrown in my room.)

yes yes, i know i've disappointed all you blog fans of mine...

but, there are times when you have to understand that technology can go very wrong sometimes, in this case, breaking down on me.

hah! so much for me complaining about everyone else's comp, now that it has happened to yours truly.

it has been a very sad/busy/stressful/sickly week for me. in fact, i'm quite busy for the days to come as well. looks like i'll only be free like after september?!

*CCCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY* (if you couldn't read it, it's cry.)

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if you guys want to know more about me and ivan, i'm sorry to disappoint once again.

no progress has been made. in fact, the other day he made me quite mad because he tried to "test" my feelings for him.

[ivan: i know you're reading this right now. but i don't give a damn. hmpf!]

the problem lies with... ME.

i don't like being attached. it kills my freedom, messes up my schedule, creates havoc in my heart, tumbles in my dreams... what more can i ask for, than to just stay the way we are right now?

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can't people just understand the fact that i'm busy (to the power of infinity or slightly less)???

school timetable - i go to school from 8am-5pm on mondays and tuesdays, 8am-1pm on wednesdays, 10am-9.30pm on thursdays, and thank goodness i've got fridays off!

home work - tons of them piling up already. lecturers are force feeding us with as much information as they can. i've got deadlines for projects already.

1st week of school - i came only for 1 day of lesssons last week. had club crawl on tuesday and wednesday, then fell sick with gastric on thursday.

cca - deadlines. the pressure to be the best leader. the scary thing about leading. politics. orientation. blood donation drive. so many things undone, so little time to plan.

off days - even during my free time after school on wednesdays or on fridays i have to think about my projects and club stuff. meetings are never ending. in fact we even met on sunday for a 3 hour long meeting.

see how much time i have left for myself?

i want to go clubbing, but i know i can't wake up the next morning. i want to play mahjong but i know i have other stuff that's more important. xuelin's back in singapore, and we hardly have time to meet up too.

[xuelin + clarice: we are supposed to have high tea my dears, aren't we?]

i don't even have time for jewel now. i missed church last weekend too. argh...

thank goodness my comp's down. if not, it's gonna be worse. argh. i've been typing for a long while now. my classes are gonna start soon. miss ya guys loads. will blog once i have the time. *muacks*